"I will win in the end."

Light a candle for Angel Dust,
or read our dedications to her.


1982 - 2001

 
Angel Dust came to our TSF Family two years ago. As a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, she shared her pain, she shared our pain, and we shared our love and our healing journey with her. She showed us the true meaning of courage.

Along her journey with us, she met a man, Justin, who gave her the love and safety she deserved every day of her life. And for him, TSF is eternally grateful.

Within her, Angel Dust nurtured a small one, Lil Kayie, and we grew to know and love her too, with all our hearts. Lil Kayie loved bubbles most of all. Angel Dust, Lil Kayie, and all those inside her were the bravest of survivors, someone we will all carry within us for eternity.

In January, 2001, she passed away from long-term complications from her abuse. She is, and will always be, our Family. She is finally at peace, but we shall all miss her deeply. Angel Dust, Lil Kayie, we love you.

May, 1999

"I am 16, have been safe for a short time, and now I feel the healing hurts worse than us being there and dealing with it.. I love my inside family even if the thought of it scares me, but will not let anyone hurt us again... I will not let them win, I will win and be a stronger person for it."

AngelDust

What We'll Be

Some days it looks like rain
Doesn't mean we stay inside
Just because we might get wet
Doesn't mean we run and hide
We're given circumstance
Doesn't mean it's always good
Sometimes things don't end up
The way we thought they would
But my reality
Is nothing less than
All that you have promised me
What I see isn't always what will be
I know that there is a hope 
Beyond what I can see
Can't say I understand
Each step along the way
What should be black or white
Suddenly is shades of gray
But when I can't see clear
I simply close my eyes
This light in me is bigger
Than the world outside
It all makes perfect sense
Cause my trust is in nothing less 
Than Providence
It isn't so easy
Not like I thought it would be
But slowly I am seeing 
Things are clear to you 

© Angeldust 1999

Listen

Standing in the corner
Wiping all the tears away
Little body shaking
Frightened by another day
Momma she just left
Daddy he just hurt
Caught in the middle
A battle filled with pain

Won't you listen, won't you listen
Listen to the children cry
Another runaway 
Who can't leave behind this cruel life

Now a little older
Watching all the children play
And her mind goes back 
To all the times daddy had his way
She doesn't get to sleep at night
She often wounders why
Daddy started something
That well never go away

Can't you see all the children cry
Listen to all the children cry
We can't leave this curl life behind
It plays in our minds over and over

There still reminds the questions 
Deep inside her mind
The love that daddy gave
Has left a scar behind
She wonders
Wonders why

© Angeldust 1999

Longing For Someone

Innocents lost in a moment
Not in a life time regained
Hiding inside seem so hopeless
Living my life seems in vain

Longing for someone to hold me honestly
Longing for someone who really cares
Will the memories fade
Must I live in shame
Will I learn to trust again

Hands of time they move so slowly
Surely help to ease the pain
I don't know why 
But I am hoping desperately to trust again

Longing for someone to hold me honestly
Longing for someone who really cares
Will the memories fade
Must I live in shame
Will I learn to trust again

I won't live in shame
I will learn to trust again
I will win

© Angeldust 1999


TSF thanks Justin for being that someone.
For giving Angel Dust the love she always 
deserved IRL. Please visit Justin's page 
for Angel Dust and Lil Kayie.

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